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Will the Circle be Unbroken – Bioshock Infinite

Posted on March 31, 2013

Will the Circle be Unbroken - Bioshock Infinite

Few stories have ever been able to so vividly capture the Beast of America.

"Will the circle be unbroken

By and by, Lord, by and by.

There's a better home a-waiting

In the sky, Lord, in the sky…"

«— ∞ —»

By and by…


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Palliativity 189: bad motherf#cker

Posted on March 28, 2013

Time to bust-out of your Monday to Friday:

The Biting Elbows sure know how to have a good time.


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Continental Divide

Posted on March 25, 2013

Continental Divide

"The flash of a firefly in the night.

The breath of a buffalo in the wintertime.

The little shadow which runs across the grass and loses itself in the sunset.

That is life."

— Crowfoot, Blackfoot Warrior —


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Palliativity 188: withdrawal

Posted on March 21, 2013

9 years of pills. 5 days of torment. Withdrawl is a bitch.

 300mg Lyrica- twice daily. 6570 pills later, here I am.

In all that time not a single dose missed or else "death by seizures", or so I thought.

Part of the reason that my chronic pain treatment took so long to make progress is that every doctor and specialist over my 15 years in treatment wanted to be the hero. I didn't even have a diagnosis until 5 months ago. Back in 2004, my former general physician saw that a shiny new anti-epileptic/ fibromyalgia med was on it's way over from the EU. He thought that it might cure my condition despite the fact that I had neither of those problems. It did significantly cut down the number of constant stabbing muscle spasms to only a handful, but it was just another palliative thrown on the pile with the others.

The ensuing years have been good times for my liver and my insurance premiums.

As of today, it's been 5 weeks since my RFA procedure for Cervical Facet Syndrome. Last week's follow-up with my doc was amazing. He thought I'd only get a 50-60% positive effect from the procedure. When I told him that it's more like 95%, he geeked-out. He then told me to stop taking Lyrica, cold-turkey—

But, what about the aforementioned "death by seizures"?

"Did you have a seizure disorder before?"


"Then you won't have any. Just stop taking it. I'm gonna go call your general doc to tell him the good news!"

[ Doctor Exits office, stage-left ]

Goddamnit, medicine…

• • •

Withdrawal is a bitch. Imagine 5 days of nausea, jitters, headaches, insomnia and random muscle spasms. My condition went bad for the first time since the procedure. Cold fear gripped my heart once again, but then I remembered. I'm still getting used to this newfound optimism that I would get better, and that I did. Here I am. Better. Stronger. Healthier. Me.


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Weight of the World

Posted on March 18, 2013

Weight of the World

“Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swamps of the not-quite,

the not-yet, and the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration

for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won.

It exists. It is real. It is possible. It's yours.”

— Ayn Rand —


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Palliativity 187: killed it dead

Posted on March 14, 2013

30 days since my last vicodin.

30 days since my last lidocain injection.

 Baseline pain: 0-1/10

I've been given to go ahead to stop taking the half-dozen drugs that doctors have thrown at me over the years;

The last bastions of the me that never was.

Now is the age of what will be.

Pour the whiskey and turn the volume up to eleven. Let's dance!


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