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Palliativity 181: Dangerous to go alone…

Posted on January 31, 2013

The hours and nights I spent gaming into the dawn with friends forged our destinies for a lifetime.

The warm tube glow of agony and triumph side by side on our end-boss date with destiny.

It's dangerous to go alone:


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Posted on January 27, 2013


"They wrote in the old days that it is sweet and fitting to die for one's country.
But in modern war, there is nothing sweet nor fitting in your dying.
You will die like a dog for no good reason. "

— Ernest Hemingway —

Fragments — Wiki-commons and Manuel Orazi:


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Palliativity 180: The Astroboy

Posted on January 24, 2013

Astro Boy - 鉄腕アトム Tetsuwan Atomu, lit. "Mighty Atom" - 1952

Welcome to the strangely tragic post-apocalyptic story of Osamu Tezuka's Astroboy. Rather than just an innocent, simple tale of a kid with rocket legs and laser beams, the origin myth of Astro begins with the death of a child.

The boy's father, a mad scientist, cannot accept the fate of his son and chooses to remake him with steel and atomic fire in his chest. Ultimately, the mad scientist rejects his surrogate-child creation and Astro is forced-out into an unforgiving world that sees robots as slaves undeserving of compassion.

Astroboy not only launched Japanese animation onto the global scnene, but also planted the seed of cyberpunk in the minds of children across the world; a generation destined to question the ghost in the machine.


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Posted on January 20, 2013

Bite of the cold…

Nevermore, ©MMXIII

"Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing,
doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.

— Edgar Allan Poe —

Featuring the majestic Merle Oberon.


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‡ inducted into the Society6 Shop - 1/23/2013

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Palliativity 179: seeing red

Posted on January 17, 2013

My heart stops.

For the past four years, I have self administered lidocaine injections daily as a palliative to numb my chronic neck and shoulder pain. Sticking a 3ml syringe into my neck meat took a little getting used to, but it's my only non-narcotic way of feeling normal. I only know of a few people whose doctors have trusted them this much. The only side-effect is that my neck is grey with scar tissue and I look like long-term a vampire snack.

Lidocaine: "the first amino amide–type local anesthetic, was first synthesized under the name xylocaine by Swedish chemist Nils Löfgren in 1943. His colleague Bengt Lundqvist performed the first injection anesthesia experiments on himself. It was first marketed in 1949." -wikipedia

The only catch of this magical tincture is that if I hit a vein and inject, I would die. For that reason, I pull back the plunger every time I dose myself. I have only ever drawn blood 4 times. Each time, panic sets in and I freeze. I slowly pull the syringe from my neck and breathe; like easing off the hammer of a 1911, finger on the trigger.

averaging 4 injections per day x 365 days x 4 years = 5840 injections total

4 times I've hit a vein / 5840 injections = .00068

.068% chance of death if I don't look myself in the mirror

My heart stops…


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Ouroboros – Battle Angel Alita

Posted on January 14, 2013

Regarding my work, many people have asked about the significance of the eye markings/ war paint I give my subjects.

Alita is the answer:


Battle Angel Alita

( 銃夢, literally  "gun" mu "dream", creatively read as ガンム ganmu )

This tale remains my favorite manga and, in my opinion, one of the greatest stories of all time. It's themes dance between fairy tale and existentialism, cyberpunk and bildungsroman. For all of the motorball races, brutal cyborg battles and gallons of spilled blood, there are these quiet soulful moments that read after read bring a quivering smile and tears to my eyes.

The heroin is Alita/Gally/#99/Yoko - amnesiac elite warrior cyborg pulled from the scrapyard after falling from Mars. She is destined to fight, as each victory unlocks more of her forgotten past. As a broken judo player and sensei who chooses to continue fighting to discover myself, I have only grown to enjoy Alita's story ever more.

Battle Angel Alita - Timeline

"Now I know that nothing in this life is without meaning, and Death hides the Angels it makes in blue sky…"



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